Words

The Earth Says to Me…
The Sky Says to Me…

The earth says to me
Welcome home, I have been waiting for you.
Come lay down on my skin, I will hold you.
Let my roots hold you.
Let my river hold your tears,
Come and rest.
Rest my child,
put your worries and pain down.
I will hold them for you.
I will nourish you.
Rest.

The sky says to me
Go back down to earth.
You have been floating for too long.
I will protect you.
I can see you from up here.
I am here.
It is time to go back down to earth.
Stay there, you are safe.
Stay, ground, trust, rest.
June 30, 2021.

Two Weeks Ago

Two weeks ago, I didn’t think it was possible to be fully understood,
to be fully seen when it comes to my pain and frustration.

Two weeks ago, my frustration in this seems dark and endless,
the pain was getting too heavy to hold.

Two weeks ago, I felt lost and despair.
I felt sorrow.
Today, everything seems lighter,
things seem to be more manageable, because you see me,
because you understand my pain.
My pain and frustration now have a voice.

Will this feeling last?
Will the pain ease forever?
How can I hold on to this easeful feeling?
June 14, 2021.

The Last Thing I Said…

The last thing I said to you was “Be careful, stay home.”

I called, you told me you fell yesterday morning.
I asked why, when, how.

You said you were bored and went out early in the morning.

You died five days later.
So many things left unsaid.

I didn’t get to say goodbye.
I didn’t get to forgive you.
I didn’t get to ask why.
I didn’t get to finish our relationship.

I have so many questions.
So many things left unsaid.
June 11, 2021.